H E L L O W O R L D
I’ve been extra motivated going into this year (2020), especially during this past month. I had some unhappy moments and it somehow motivated me. This hasn’t happened in years! I feel really happy with how things have been progressing in my life. I can almost say I am back to being my old self. For a while I was dealing with a lot of garbage and it has taken me so long to let it go. I have definitely learned a lot over the past couple of years and stepping into the year 2020 I’ve made some healthy changes.
I’m paying closer attention to the people I admire the most and trying to recreate their routines or habits. I’m also focusing more on the present and my future instead of dwelling on the past or on things I have absolute no control over. I have built myself up to a much stronger person and I’m back to loving myself because I can actually be myself once again.
Do you know the saying that goes like ”not everybody is going to love you”? I don’t really believe in it when we say it sometimes because we repeat it non-stop, yet we still care about what other people think of us. I understand that it’s not like you can go “fuck off” with everyone — after all, you kind of build a “reputation” and you want to be seen in a certain way, especially professionally…but in a personal way I think I’ve finally come to terms with it. I’m always going to be the bad guy in someone else’s story, but you know what? I’m okay with it! They do not define me. I know my worth and I know I’m a good person; if I ever did something wrong to anyone and it has been communicated with me directly, I will apologize and change my behavior. I have nothing to feel bad for and I don’t feel guilty for stepping away to take care of myself. I’ve done my best to be a better person and I have helped everyone to my best ability before even helping myself. I am proud of myself for all I have done and for getting through each day. I thank God for giving me the strength I need and for always guiding me through this wonderful journey.
In this new state of motivation, it has led me to writing again and doing many other things I am passionate about. I actually plan on writing a book in the upcoming months, which I am really excited about, especially since I’ll be working on it with someone who is really close to me. It’s a special thing when you can team up with someone on something you love.
Since I’ve been MIA across all of my blogging platforms for the past four years, I would love to make an update on what’s been going on in my life and make some changes on here. Since this little space of mine is mainly for anyone’s eyes (since all posts are made public), I may focus on writing only about specific topics on here, while across other platforms where it is more private, I’ll write more freely and openly with other and all topics. I’ll save the big update for next time. I only wanted to make a quick appearance on here and write about anything that crossed my mind within ten minutes. It may seem I have typed a lot, but I really haven’t said much. Baby steps is the best way!
I hope everyone is doing well and is staying healthy.